I JUST KNEW ! Part 6

Part -6

Sakshi’s family resided almost around 350 Km away from our house which was another district however, I loved visiting their place . It was more of a town unlike our city it was calm and we had many fields, Their house was well constructed in an old fashion with a big veranda and many rooms they had 4 buffaloes , a cow and a dog. It was always fun.

Sakshi and family left after dinner, taking a promise that we would visit them on Next month as we all were invited to a wedding which was being organised near to their residence, this was the same wedding which everyone was discussing in the afternoon. It was sanskars cousins wedding.

That night while I was preparing for bed, Dad knocked the door and asked “”Hey doll can I speak to you for some time? ”

I replied opening the door “Of Course dad, what's it about ” dad walked in and sat on my study table while I went back to my bed and sat down curiously waiting to know what was it as dad always kept himself busy with his office and routines, rarely did he used to come to my room. We mostly had all our conversations at dinner table.

He thought for a while and then started “ I am not looking for a final answer from you sweetheart. However I need to know what you are thinking at least a smaller version of  it. Look -You are our only daughter we would never want you to compromise on any of your options after all it’s your life and it’s all about your future.”

Alright I am getting the picture  I hinted myself however I never felt this would go so dramatic. Still I was liking it.

Dad Continued “ Sanskar is a very good boy, Even his family is , Yes I agree,  you may be facing situations where you may need to adjust and understand among your selves in future but surely he would be doing the same. I know it was all rushed in for you. We should've and we could definitely have planned better. However I wanted the best for you and so I never thought much on that aspect. Here All I want from you is to think before you answer”

“Ok Dad I understand that but, I need time to think.” I said wondering why wasn’t I talking about Sumit or answering a NO directly. This was the apt time.

“That’s Fine I am happy assuming, that you found him  good enough to give a thought.” My dad prompted and started smiling.

I smiled back , however a part of me was stopping me to do so.

Dad said “Goodnight doll” and left me to sleep. “ Good night dad” I said closing the door behind him. Telling myself whatsoever I need to sleep I haven't slept last night. All I need the most now is a good night sleep.

However as soon I switched off the lights and wrapped myself in the blanket I started thinking about Sanskar and his contagious smile , I smiled back thinking he wasn’t actually bad at all, it was a hell good experience talking to him. All the while he was trying to make me comfortable and what did I do I couldn’t tell him the complete thing. Again it was the time of my confusion mode, which was all of a sudden, switched on and yelled at me why are you thinking about him. It's time to talk to Sumit…….. I still love him.  

I grabbed my phone and checked my messages Sumit was appearing online  I called him the ring was going really long and then the recoreded message said “The person you are calling is not accepting any calls at this moment” I tried for second , third and fourth time it alway ended the same way.

He was not picking up the call, I shouldn’t have even tried I felt. He would be thinking how desperate I am to talk to him. And he is ignoring me maybe he do not love me any more, And may be he feels I am a pathetic Ex girl friend who is irritating him. OK and in all of these confusion I have spoiled the mood of such a nice guy .“Sanskaar I am so sorry” I said  

Ohhh I have screwed up everything I thought.

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I JUST KNEW ! Part 5

Part 5-

It was almost one and half hour past , Sanskar left. I was waiting for someone to come back into the room and tell me it's all going to be okay and nothing is my fault.

Soon there was a buzz in the hall, like every one started discussing on the same topic.

In another 20 mins, my mom and aunt Snehal came to my room. As expected my mom started yelling at me, “Shreya is this normal , did we teach you all of this ? And we used to admire you in front of everyone saying that my Shreya is well mannered and decent girl” Aunt Snehal added “Sweetie you should have thought a bit, ” and then towards my mom “I won’t blame her this generation they take things for granted please don’t be upset with her, it’s not her fault, May be she was shy to come out”.

I was about to broke into tears, while in the very same moment, my dad entered the room, and to my astonishment he actually calmed down my mother saying “done is done

so just stop bugging my daughter”. I was completely shocked hearing that.

Everyone moved back to hall as dad asked us to start for lunch.  I really wanted everyone not to poke me or start up any conversation about Sanskar.  So I was keeping calm and just focused in helping mom while serving lunch to everyone , As everyone was done, they moved to hall from dining room they started discussing about the family, Looked like they weren’t happy with Sanskar cousin who was getting married in few weeks, There was a discussion that she cancelled a lot of guys she met and finally marrying someone who was not from our caste and is younger to her. No idea for what reason people bother about such things I wondered ,  Sumedh prompted that there is a follow up match today and he switched on the TV, there was some cricket match going on Australia vs West indies I read, likewise all men in the room fell silent and got immersed in the match.

It was our (Mom’s and my) turn to have lunch I had no clue how but I was constantly eating and may be I ate around 7 to 8 poori and good quantity of rice I never had more than 5 poori at a time. Sakshi soon hinted my mom, “Look Aunty ji , Didi is so hungry ” and she giggled.  I had no other option than to ignore her. However it was Sakshi and she cannot keep quiet in any situation. “So didi did you like him? What all did you people discuss ?”

I was awestruck with her questions I gazed at her and then looked at my mom wondering how come Sakshi don’t know about what all happened. Contradicting to my emotions even my mom started giggling and said “Yes answer her, Did you like him?”

I had no clue what these two were talking, and why ? Did all that I imagined never have happened  and soon I asked “What did they say while leaving did they like me ? ”

“No sweetie they were just asking about you specially Sanskar mom, may be she wanted to greet you goodbye and as Sanskar was in a hurry to leave, Infact we all were waiting for you, we thought you would come down as Sanskar did, But you didn't” answered snehal aunty. “So Sanskar, I mean they didn’t give any opinion on me” I enquired

“Haww Aunty ji , Didi looks curious ” teased Sakshi. While my mom explained “Beta they said they need some time , however they will discuss among their family, Sanskars Grandfather and put forward the opinion soon”

I felt a little relaxed and then wondered why did my mom scolded me, if they didn’t knew anything about sumit. “Why did they leave early I thought they would stay for lunch, And mom why did you scold me before lunch ” I enquired.

Sakshi said “Didi , Sanskar got some emergency call he said he needs to attend a conference call and needs to go home soon. As soon as he came down. We all were waiting for you to come down as they were about to leave, but you didn’t they waited for another 30 mins and left, so your mom was angry that you should have come down to greet them  bye”

Post lunch we too joined others and Sakshi changed the channel, There was a very famous old movie being telecasted. Both the Co stars were my favourites however I wasn’t able to take interest in watching  movie. Everyone was so much into the movie while I was thinking about Sanskar, & what all  happened few hours ago was being rewinded in my head, I was thinking of probabilities of what if I have asked about few other questions , I missed the chance , what would he have answered if I had asked him so, and all I did was getting worried about the marriage, and about sumit who haven’t responded to any of my messages still.

Finally I was feeling really absurd when I found myself comparing both of these guys. It was weird now that, there is no chance I could have any of these two back in my life. Then why am I even wasting my time thinking about them.

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I JUST KNEW ! Part 4

Part 4

As we arrived inside my room, Sakshi left us saying “All the best people, make the best of your time ”

Sanskar first looked at me and then he started studying My room, He complimented “The room is as pretty as the girl standing here, How neat and tidy you have kept everything ” All that was 3 people and 1 hour effort! I thought to myself

He moved ahead and grabbed my bean bag and sat there leisurely,  On the other hand I was going nervous again with teraflop of thoughts of what next now ? What about Sumit ? What if this guy likes me ? will my parents be forcing me to marry him? I still love sumit I can’t marry someone else.

While I was tossing myself with all these thoughts and questioning, Sanskaar stood and asked “Can we sit?” waving his hand. There was something about this guy’s smile it made me to a little ease. I sat on my bed in a very attentive position with my back straight and chin up, While he sat down back on the bean bag very casually rotating his phone he said “So you like chicken , Huhh”

I Smiled “Yes, Almost all the cuisines related to chicken”

He continued “If you can cook, I would too like to try chicken then”

I was confused as his mom told me that he is an eggetarian “But you don’t take meat do you?”  I asked .

“yes I am not a non vegetarian , However I started eating egg while I started gyming and chicken I would like to try , As you love it so much ” He answered and smiled again.

I looked down and then to my left and then in random directions, while he was constantly watching me I felt a little uneasy with him staring me, behind Sanskaar there was a huge Painting of a teenaged Couple holding hands Framed  with quotes “I Love that Feeling, I get when I see you smiling ” It was gifted to me by Sumit on last valentine's day.  I was lost for a while.

Sanskar again Broke the Silence “You Know you look a little nervous, Are you Okay ?”

“Hmm” I just nodded , as he continued “Shreya … ” he paused till I looked at him “Shreya look even I am a bit nervous, I agree getting married is a big decision. However I feel things can workout well if we give it a try….. I mean we should talk, to know each other better ….if you like we can meet later on once or….. Like…uhhh  separately outside or ..ummmm   ”

He looked at me as if he was trying to figure out if I was listening to what all he said . And then he asked “Only if you like it. It’s completely Ok , if you don’t want to talk now , I understand”

“Sanskaar ”That was the first time I addressed him , with his name I found it huge , kind of  heavy “Look there is nothing as such , I am actually wondering , like what exactly can I ask you, I wasn’t prepared at all, that is it. nothing else . We can definitely talk . You can go ahead and ask if you have any questions.”

There was silence for some time this time he was looking at his mobile and then he asked “So you are a software engineer ?”

“ Yes , An android applications Hybrid developer to be precise ” I answered.

He raised his eyebrows “Oh ! that’s cool I do understand android application, for the rest I am not that technically sound ” he said “ You know , In my family pretty long discussions about you were the hot topic on dinner table from past one month  and so I was a bit curious to know more and I have done as much research as I could ” he Giggled

“ That means you already know a lot about me right ? ” I enquired

“Not really , but yes I know where you are working ie Wipro Office, where is your office located , and haa you take your company bus  you took dance classes from Markanda academy, You are a good with cooking , well that I came to know recently … and … and ….”

I started laughing “and well that’s quite good amount of  information, I am worried now I didn’t get a chance to do any research on you” I said.

“Well you see you can ask”  he prompted

“Okay , then tell me something about you that was not discussed in the hall , Or something no one knows” I said and smiled.

He gave me a suspicious look and said “No One knows huhhh, I have a skate board I used to skate A lot in college however I barely get time for that now but i do imagine myself doing it when I dream and I fall off from my bed while i'm Asleep” , He laughed-  “well that’s something no one knows” he continued “I play guitar , I love A R rahman songs, I do poetry too , for which I was quite popular among girls in my college ”

“Wow Nice that means you had a great fan following ” I asked

“Not Fans,friends”  he responded.

“Uhhh huhh ...Girl friends? ”

He laughed “No , I wasn’t that fortunate, Most of the girls I used to like were already dating someone or the other ,Hard luck with that.” he sighed “And what about you , Did you have any Boyfriend”

I was silent for sometime …may be, I was confused , Unable to figure out if I should answer him? I didn’t felt like lying to him no idea for what reasons

“I have a boy … Boyfriend his name is sumit and ummm… we had this last month”

Sanskaar stood up and said “You have ?”, there was a pause “That’s Okay Shreya I don’t want to know much on that context , do you still are in love with him ”

I looked up towards him...“I think so ”, I was so clueless . and worried about what all I was saying. There was too many other things which I wanted to explain him. One of which was not to disclose about all this to my parents. But I just couldn’t speak.

Sanskar walked out of the room, Saying nothing. I didn’t move even a bit. I was lost with all my thoughts and worries. I was picturising the sequence that might be going on downstair . By now he might have revealed every details to my parents and his parents. How would they be reacting. My dad would rush upstairs as soon as they leave and start shouting at me, Maybe mummy would stop my Dad from going further Angry. Oh I was so scared of imagining all of these and was just waiting for the day to pass as soon as possible.

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I JUST KNEW ! Part 3

Part 3

We slowly went down, Aunt Snehal handed me a tray with around 12 cups of tea which wasn’t made by me ofcourse, all the scenes from hindi tele soaps started coming to my mind I somehow felt all of these a little funny, though I was nervous. We moved towards the hall, and trust me I wanted to look straight towards the guys as I couldn’t wait to know how exactly he looked like. But, Aunt beside me started whispering, “You are supposed to look shy , like india girl try not to stare” on the other hand Sakshi  was giggling “didi he is so dashing, wow he looks smart in blue”.

I handed over the tray to my mom , and My aunt made me sit opposite to the Boy beside my dad, Finally the moment arrived and I looked at him he was talking or may be answering to my dad’s questions, and he did notice me looking at him, he smiled pausing and then continued to rest of the questions my dad was imposing on what and whereabouts of his job and salary.

His name was Sanskaar, Damn what kind of historic name is that. He was an MBA graduate working on really good package which made me feel low, I wasn’t earning that good amount. He looked average wearing a skyblue T shirt and a faded jean. Come on and I was wearing saree , doing all these hairstyle to look traditional wasn’t anything imposed on him, how can he be so casual? I thought to myself.

Every answer to the questions imposed on me were being answered by my mom or dad I just kept smiling , and then there was a question from Sanskaar mom , “Dear do you eat non vegetarian ” to which I answered “ I love chicken aunty ji ”

Sanskaar looked at me , again with a smile while his mom continued , “Ahh actually we are vegetarians but yes Sanskaar eat egg”

There were a lot many questioning and answering going on between both the parties, while I and Sanskaar both kept calm for some time. If my instincts are to be believed he too was trying to look at me over again.

Sanskaar’s dad stood up and said “Our conversation may continue for a long time, I think we should allow these two to talk in person, If you agree with that” pointing towards my dad.

My dad shook his head in agreement.

Again a sequence of scenes started in my head, which I saw in television soaps, that how a male lead actor talks to his female lead while they are alone.

I stood as soon as My dad asked Sanskaar “Beta you guys can go to Shreya’s room and talk to each other, if you like? ”

Sanskar and sakshi  Followed me while I moved upstairs towards my room , Sakshi accompanied Sanskar and was bugging him with her silly questions

“So What should I call you, Sanskaar ji ?” to which He smiled and noded

And Sakshi continued , “Did you like my sister? ” , “why are you people vegetarians?”, “You know Didi is Superb in cooking, And she really dance well , do you dance ?? Do you know that didi has taken Kathak classes  too ?” Sanskaar kept on smiling.