I have no idea if I should be publishing this post, but yes I know why I
am writing it.
Since 2010 Writing /writing this blog is not just a hobby, it’s
been much more. I connect myself, my feelings, and my morals to these articles
while I write. They have been part of collection of things I have learnt
growing up, a bunch of good and bad memories described defined and
contemplated. When I write, it gives me a feeling like am reliving few moments.
I love reading and rereading them as well :-). Funny isn't it:-D
So here is one more to the hierarchy.........
This describes a whole consistently changing pattern of
emotions experienced with in a span of 30 hours.
So here enters a girl who has this “like I care” Attitude about
her dressing sense in a room of partially known congregation. People around are
in Awe to her appearance today and all are complementing about her looks, supposedly
stuck with a high CONFIDENCE she started posing for camera.
Meanwhile she gets ALARMED
of someone looking at her. A wave of CONSCIOUNESS runs down her nerves. It was
not the first time she was looking at him, yet there was something very
new and fresh which left her CONFUSED thinking what it was? And why she is all
COLD and NERVOUS. As if she was supposed to write an exam for which she wasn’t
prepared.
She tried breathing few deep breaths, counting down numbers but
unfortunately nothing worked out. Time arrived when he came up and stood just
beside her,
Though the hall was heavily crowded, her head was in astonishment
upon a question which SURPRISED her right that moment “How come only presence
of someone makes such difference to me”
It took good time for both of them to exchange the salutations yet
as time passed pleasant WARMTH replaced the NERVOUSNESS, which was completely
vanished once he bowed down his head to make sure she was comfortable.
She made a vow to herself that ever in future if conditions of
stress appear between them she will always try to be the first to bow down to
resolve it.
People came in batches to greet them both; she stood there for
really long time with him thinking about things she wanted to share with him.
Certainly it wasn’t the right time. She just BLUSHED every time he looked at
her. Everything ended well, the crowd was reduced.
That night though she came back home alone, She had his thoughts
lingering her mind and a sleepless night passed on with an EXPECTATION of
seeing him again the next day.
Sunrays arrived with warmth to make her more CHEERFUL; No idea why
she was so FASCINATED and then when she met him she was all ENTHUSIATIC, may be
time was more graceful to her that they could spend a really long time
together.
No much discussion not many words there were more silences which
made her SHY and PRUDENT at the same time, they had many eye contacts which
seemed soothing and glee.
Time was up and she had plans to leave, He caught her hand for a
moment may be accidentally and oscillations between yes and no started in her
head. she was EXCITED to stay back and WORRIED at the same time thinking it’s a
bad idea.
She made a last call in an EMPTINESS to greet him bye. Well she
thought that was how it was supposed to end with a little ANGER on self.
Lying down in DISAPPOINTED she was still immersed in thoughts
while her phone rangs, she knew it was him far before checking the phone.
There were more silences in the conversation yet she felt like she
understood exactly what he meant what he was going through, As if he was not
very far but sitting opposite to her.
The most wonderful feeling was when they broke the silence the
words were very much expected; just like some incident which was repeated in
her mind and suddenly she encountered it in real.
Bewildered with so many thoughts of him, she had an
uncontrollable smile on her face that night till she could fight back her rigorously
fluctuating feelings to calm down her senses which made her heart beats far faster.
I don't know if I have achieved or
lost something with in those 30 hours but yes they will always stay in the list
of most valuable moments of my life.
--hume tumse pyar kitna ye hum bhi nahi jaante magar jee
nahi sakte tumhare bina J
~cheers~
Garima singh
