“What if I say NO ?” I asked.
He took a chair and sat down placing
his elbows on his thigh bending front. “It’s completely your choice; I just…… I
feel it’ll be great growing old together as a couple. When I look at you, I ….”
And he paused uncertain of words he needs to arrange in his sentence. I felt why am I playing the evil one, what’s wrong
with me, it’s just that I wanted him
to say that he loves me and then we could have thought of marriage sometime
later.
I said “Sanskar you are rushing
yourself to marriage, I mean what if post our marriage you find someone and you
fall in love”
he countered it “Shreya this possibilities will always be
there no matter whom you marry or I do…”
Oh
come on sanskar why aren’t you just saying that you love me, wait does he loves
me or just I am a good option I
thought and I said “I need to go home….” And left back to his room to change my
clothes.
Sanskar
followed me and asked “ You like someone .. someone else?” I stopped at his
door and said “NO……. I need change” I
moved inside the room and he closed the door while I locked it from
inside. There was silence, for a minute.
Sanskar was standing at the door and he said “Shreya its always a couples
decision whether to stick with the marriage or … otherwise.”
And I said “But to decide to marry
someone, you should be in love with that person. Or at least like him/her to
that extent.”
I changed my clothes and opened the door he
was still at the door, he appeared very serious. I moved past him, he stopped
me holding my bag and said “You mean to say you don’t like me to extent of
marring me? However you like me enough that you allowed me to kiss you right!…”
and as I turned, I saw him angry for the first time, he continued “What were
you doing all the while, confusing me? Making all those blank calls, asking me
to drop you… you said you like meeting me … ” there was a pause “Or maybe I am
a fool, I misinterpreted everything……I ,… sorry” he gulped and his eyes turned
red and expression changed. I felt sorry for doing all the drama. Awee he looks so cute when he says sorry .
He released the grip of my bag and turned to
other side, standing there I dint knew how to fix the situation. I pulled his
shoulder back to turn him to my side and when he did, I held his face and
kissed his lips, he kissed me back it continued for a little while.
As we stopped I Said “I love you… I
really do , I am sorry … I just wanted you ….I mean I wanted to know if you
love me ….. There is some order you see … first we fall in love then we think
of marriage right ” and he said “You shouldn’t have kissed me then … I was
planning to do this after marriage” he laughed and prompted “You reversed the
order…… Shreya I love you… I thought you already know.. I am not a person who
plans all this, I prefer being practical.. I thought you will understand.”
I raised my eyebrows and started to
walk towards the entrance gate, “Take your office bag too, I hope you aren’t
forgetting anything this time” he said following me.
“Yes I have everything..” I said and smiled
taking my bag, he took it back and said “I’ll help you, too many bags huhh… by the
way can we repeat what we did just now before you leave…”he pouted his lips.
I looked at him and narrowed my eyes “No, I
have already spoiled the order …. I won’t till we get married”. He helped me
with the direction and hugged me before I started my scooter I bid him bye and
left to home ….