I JUST KNEW ! Part 38

“What if I say NO ?” I asked.

He took a chair and sat down placing his elbows on his thigh bending front. “It’s completely your choice; I just…… I feel it’ll be great growing old together as a couple. When I look at you, I ….” And he paused uncertain of words he needs to arrange in his sentence. I felt why am I playing the evil one, what’s wrong with me, it’s just that I wanted him to say that he loves me and then we could have thought of marriage sometime later.

I said “Sanskar you are rushing yourself to marriage, I mean what if post our marriage you find someone and you fall in love”

he countered it  “Shreya this possibilities will always be there no matter whom you marry or I do…”

Oh come on sanskar why aren’t you just saying that you love me, wait does he loves me or just I am a good option I thought and I said “I need to go home….” And left back to his room to change my clothes.

Sanskar followed me and asked “ You like someone .. someone else?” I stopped at his door and said “NO……. I need change”  I moved inside the room and he closed the door while I locked it from inside.  There was silence, for a minute. Sanskar was standing at the door and he said “Shreya its always a couples decision whether to stick with the marriage or … otherwise.”

And I said “But to decide to marry someone, you should be in love with that person. Or at least like him/her to that extent.”

 I changed my clothes and opened the door he was still at the door, he appeared very serious. I moved past him, he stopped me holding my bag and said “You mean to say you don’t like me to extent of marring me? However you like me enough that you allowed me to kiss you right!…” and as I turned, I saw him angry for the first time, he continued “What were you doing all the while, confusing me? Making all those blank calls, asking me to drop you… you said you like meeting me … ” there was a pause “Or maybe I am a fool, I misinterpreted everything……I ,… sorry” he gulped and his eyes turned red and expression changed. I felt sorry for doing all the drama. Awee he looks so cute when he says sorry .

 He released the grip of my bag and turned to other side, standing there I dint knew how to fix the situation. I pulled his shoulder back to turn him to my side and when he did, I held his face and kissed his lips, he kissed me back it continued for a little while.

As we stopped I Said “I love you… I really do , I am sorry … I just wanted you ….I mean I wanted to know if you love me ….. There is some order you see … first we fall in love then we think of marriage right ” and he said “You shouldn’t have kissed me then … I was planning to do this after marriage” he laughed and prompted “You reversed the order…… Shreya I love you… I thought you already know.. I am not a person who plans all this, I prefer being practical.. I thought you will understand.”   

I raised my eyebrows and started to walk towards the entrance gate, “Take your office bag too, I hope you aren’t forgetting anything this time” he said following me.

 “Yes I have everything..” I said and smiled taking my bag, he took it back and said “I’ll help you, too many bags huhh… by the way can we repeat what we did just now before you leave…”he pouted his lips.

 I looked at him and narrowed my eyes “No, I have already spoiled the order …. I won’t till we get married”. He helped me with the direction and hugged me before I started my scooter I bid him bye and left to home ….

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 And did something really stupid I opened the door and went back to the kitchen……

Sanskar was arranging glasses in the shelf when I asked him “I think this fits well, how do I look?”

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Sanskar turned back to look at me, and he stood still for a while, I was standing around 8 steps from him, I repeated “How do I look you dint answer.” He smiled and oscillated his head 3 time and said “amm ……hot and gorgeous”. I laughed and said “I felt I was looking sexy”

Now he took 6 steps towards me and folded his hands saying “You look sexy in sari, there is a difference”.  I repeated “Sari ” and he nodded smiling. We were looking at each other for a minute saying nothing.

Suddenly I guess, I became aware of the circumstances as he further took a step towards me, he was standing too close and my mind started racing with multiple probabilities, what did I say, why did I use the word sexy and what it may mean to him, how is he going to react I took a step back I started to feel nervous.  Sanskar’s expressions were not appearing normal, he was breathing in an intense pattern, he again moved a step towards me and I took another step back to maintain distance, at the edge of becoming panic, I asked in a shrill voice “What are you up to?”

            He said “Looks like you have guessed it right!” this time he was quick, he took his right hand around my waist and with left he held my arm. I widened my eyes Oh god is he going to kiss me. No….. why is it happening now….I started shivering this would be the first time….. I am not sure, if I was ready for it . Should I stop him?, half of my mind wanted to go with the flow and rest was confused. Just to calm down my mind,I took a deep breath and I closed my eyes. I said to myself I love him, let it happen. I felt his exhalations on my chin, he moved his face slowly to my left and whispered “Marry me !!!!”

As soon as he said this, he released the grip and took a few steps back. I opened my eyes… in shock . He stood there folding his hands.

I said “Did you just say …..Marry me?” , he nodded.

I was still in shock, I walked few steps left and then right and then asked him again “You said marry me ?” he smiled and said “Yes” I shook my head in a sense of confusion “You …….you just proposed for marriage , Isn’t this too fast……” and he said giggling  “I feel we should have been married by now.”

            “What if I say NO ?” I asked.

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After few minutes we stopped before a 3 story house, It was huge and beautiful, suddenly looking at the name plate I realized that he got me to his home. While he parked his bike and  turned to find me still waiting outside the gate.

 He came back and took the back seat of my vehicle and said “Can you please come ? I have got gifts for you, chocolates from Singapore, take them along” and I said “I cant, I am sorry ” with a angry voice. He turned my bike key on from behind and asked me to start, he was too close, I pushed him back with my elbow. And he said  “Sorry, That I dint inform you I know I could have got things along with me and given you at the mall,but…. I was confused” I started the bike and parked it near his bike, I said “I am not coming in, get me the chocolates and I will leave”.

He turned towards me and said “Because I am alone at home?” I didn’t get down from my bike and said “Yes that’s one point.” And he prompted “Then I should be scared to call you home rather, you are trained in martial arts right?” I laughed and said “Yes but basics” and he replied “Shreya I don’t even know basic defense, just come I have neighbors don’t stand here mounted on your vehicle…. please”

And I followed him in he asked me to sit pointing towards the sofa in the hall. While he went in and got a packet, and handed over to me, I opened it, to find a pair of T shirts, a trouser and a hot pant in it, there was another 2 box one with chocolates and another consisted some cosmetics. I looked at him and smiled asking “You only mentioned chocolates” again I started looking at the casual wears they were very nice, I was impressed and happy at the same time, Sanskar was smiling all the while I again said “are they all for me” I am sure he noticed my eyes sparkling in amazement.
         
He asked “Did you like them ? I bought randomly I am not sure if they are right size”. I said “the trouser and T shirt are of my size but this one” holding the hot pant I said “I don’t know plus…….. Sanskar I don’t wear this short clothes”

He said “Ohh…. Well, keep it anyway ” he stood and said “I cant wear it you see, But I ..”

I said “You ? can give it to someone else.. like your girlfriend” he laughed and paused then said “Just try it once whenever you like and .. I … it will look great on you.” “How do you know” I prompted. he said “Everyone has imagination”  he moved towards the kitchen and asked me to join.

 The hall ended at the entrance of kitchen – dining.The kitchen was very well furnished “your house is beautiful, which interior designer did you contact” I asked and he said “My Aunt , My mom’s sister she designed the hall and kitchen ” I suddenly stopped to see that Sanskar was arranging lunch at the dining table, he looked at me and said “I hope you like Italian I made pasta for us” I was shocked “You  cooked ? When?” and he said “Yes! This morning” there was beeps from the microwave. I was awestruck “I dint knew you know cooking…” and he smiled plating the pasta he kept two glasses and poured some juice and asked me to sit, I was too hungry to ask further questions the smell of food was mouthwatering. I just sat and as Sanskar took his chair we started digging in. I complimented “You are super chef, it’s Yumm”

 He said “I am glad you liked it”. I asked “what’s this juice, I mean is it some kind of mock tail. It’s nice” and he answered “It’s a concoction, mixture of a lot of ingredients, a secret recipe ” and he winked.

            Thanking him for the awesome lunch, I asked him the directions of washroom, he guided me. There was a narrow lane from the kitchen which was also connected to hall’s another end  and also to his room, where there was an attached wash room. His room was big, I mean bigger than mine. He left me in his room and went back to kitchen, There was a study table and number of books on a shelf it was more like a cupboard, he had trophies and music collections there and on the other wall there was a guitar hung and posters of Dwane Johnsons and Iron Man. I left my purse and the gifts on the bed and rushed to the loo.

            When I was back I checked myself in the mirror and brushed my hair again, I recollected his lines Just try it once whenever you like and.. I … it will look great on you.  Locking the door I picked one of the T shirt and the short pants and tried them on. And did something really stupid I opened the door and went back to the kitchen……

Sanskar was arranging glasses in the shelf when I asked him “I think this fits well, how do I look?”

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After a little discussion we decided to go on my vehicle to the Nike’s showroom.

I started the bike and he joined saying “What exactly are you planning to buy”.

I said “A wrist watch or perfume or something else which I like.. I am not very sure.”

, Mean while when I was driving I asked Sanskar “Are you comfortable?” and he answered “You have a license right!” I turned back making a face and he teased me “Madam look ahead, It’s a traffic prone area” and he was laughing. I was again annoyed as soon as I got a little clear road, I raised my accelerator, Sanskar was sitting too freely and he fell on my back with a reaction of my acceleration and I hit the brake again the same thing happened, He asked “What are you trying to do? You will hit some innocent person” and I answered “You are hitting my innocent back, and Yes I don’t know how to drive..” he started laughing again and said “looks like someone is in a mood to fight” and I said “No I am not” suddenly he held my shoulder and smiled  saying “Calm down my fighter ”we drove for another 10 mins and I reached the showroom.

            We started checking stuff randomly nothing appeared very appealing to me then sanskar asked when is his birthday I said “coming week”. “Can I suggest something?” He asked

I nodded and he said “Uncle play table tennis right; every weekend, why don’t you gift him a nice water bottle the sipper one which most of the sports person carry and a hand towel and a pair of shoe” I raised my eyebrows I wondered hand towel water bottle  and started making weird face, Sanskar moved ahead to another section and picked the Items in a cart and handed over to me he also picked a tie. I was still confused at the counter while He said “don’t worry there is nothing like gift item just give these to your dad he’ll like em’ ”  I said “I am okay with tie, rest he already have” and he replied “You mean to say your dad don’t have perfume and watch” I said “no its not like that, offo”. He smiled and said “Come on he is your dad, give him something which he can use...”

I felt he is right and I bought them all while returning back to the mall, as Sanskar’s had to pick his bike.

We were discussing about what all I could do for my Dad’s birthday, He enquired about my birthday and then I told him that mom somehow got to know that I was coming to meet him. He said “Aunty is cool don’t worry, plus we are just friends right”

I said “Yes,but ….”.and he asked “But ?” We reached the mall,  with out saying anything Sanskar got down and then moved towards his bike and started. I shouted “HEY LEAVING TO HOME ?”

            He got his bike parallel to mine and said “Are we not hungry it 2:00 pm, follow me ”

And we drove slowly in parallel, we were talking and chasing each other, it was fun I never did anything like that neither did I ever followed someone without knowing the destination.

After few minutes we stopped before a 3 story house, It was huge and beautiful, suddenly looking at the name plate I realized that he got me to his home. While he parked his bike and  turned to find me still waiting outside the gate.

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In next half an hour Sanskar got mango juice for my mom and helped mom buy Saree, Ofcourse his selection were good, but the thing annoyed me more was they both were talking to each other and ignoring my opinions. Once mumma’s shopping was done She said “Alright Sanskar, thank you It was great to have you along ” and she turned to me and said “Shall we leave?” and started walking. I stood and looked at sanskar who was smiling, and made a sad face and walked behind.

Mom said “Dad just called and asked when we’ll be joining him we can have lunch along he is in Utsav the restaurant near by ”  I looked at my watch and then at my mom “Mumma my Purpose was to buy something for Papa, and ..” she said “For his birthday?” I said “Yes !!” and she asked “Are you sure, I thought you only came to meet Sanskar here.”

We both stopped teraflops of thoughts started in my head did sanskar tell her,something how can he, how did she , oh she is very angry with me, I am so sorry ma  and I said “I am sorry mom.. I couldn’t tell you …. I was confused how to put forward thing to you, I dint knew when I started having feelings for him .. I … but I did came to buy something for papa, I just asked him to join..” Mom expressions changed from being serious now she was smiling and said “Does he know you like him?” and I blinked in shock, she continued “I saw him last night in the car while he dropped you, look shreya I believe my daughter’s word it’s just that I wanted you to be true to me nothing apart from that” and I said “There is nothing serious between us, we just are friends… nothing more as of now” she showed me her palm and said “you just said you like him, you have feelings for him?” I gulped “I am leaving with your dad, for lunch you can go and buy his the gift with sanskar who is still standing and I guess waiting for someone ” said my mom pointing towards him.

Mom turned and was about to leave I said “Mom Please don’t tell anything to dad”  making a puppy face “You are going to detail me everything, and that puppy face don’t work with me ” I nodded. She left dad was at the entrance “Aren’t you coming doll” and mom answered my behalf “Her friend is here, they may have lunch later.” And they both waved bye to me.

My phone beeped while I was standing at the entrance….

Sanskar : I am still near the elevator, Have you left?

Me : I hate you !

Sanskar : Seriously J

Me : wait I am coming

Sanskar : Naa, lets go to Nike’s Showroom

Me : Ok, I have got my bike you get your car. I will follow you.

( I texted moving towards the parking)

Sanskar : Well lets go on your bike, or my bike – Save petrol

Me : ?

Sankar : I am behind you.

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While driving towards the central mall, Mom was talking about our maid, then about some festival which was supposed to arrive and few other things and I was unable to focus on what she was saying. I was continuously going with Okays and worrying how to manage the situation I should have called off the plan or I should have texted sanskar before starting the bike, Oh mom would have seen the text message. My phone was in mom’s hand while I was driving. I was also worried thinking what if she check my phone; I hope I don’t get any call/text from sanskar meanwhile.

As we reached the parking of the mall, I asked mom to go ahead while I would get my bag checked and join her; it dint work, she said “I can wait, we shall go together”.  I got my hand bag checked at the security  and we took the elevator as soon as we got in the mall, Mom started checking the showrooms and the arrangements and I quickly texted Sanskar.

ME: I am so sorry, Please cancel the plan for shopping my mom came along, I couldn’t ask her to stay back. Sorry again.

It was 11:05 AM, I wondered Sanskar might have reached the place, then I thought may be he didn’t or else he would have contacted me.

Mom took my wrist and moved towards outlet of Shopper stop and started checking out some tops for me, I was consistently checking my mobile but there was no message appearing from Sanskar. Suddenly I started worrying about him I texted him, as mom got busy selecting the best out of 4 tops she selected earlier.

Me : Hey are you alright, please reply.

It was 11:40 am, I started to panic and called him while mom was very near to me. There were a fes rings, and suddenly he picked the call. My pulse came to normal.

Sanskar : Hello beautiful.

ME : Hey are you okay, I thought you might have reached already, I was worried.

Suddenly my mom asked “What happened?, has your friend arrived ?”

And the line went dead.

As I turned towards my mom I saw Sanskar standing behind my mom. This was further More scary situation than I imagined. My jaw dropped and eyes popped out when he greeted my mom.

Sanskar said “Hello Aunty ji, How are you ?” Mom casually replied to him “I am very fine Beta, How are your parents” and they went into a conversation as if I wasn’t existing there Sanskar was compliment my mom about her dressing sense and My mom was smiling all the while, I wondered has she forgotten that their family earlier reject her daughter? Just to gather her attention I said “Mom, I will just go and try these two, while you both can continue” I picked the top’s she selected and was about to move towards the changing room, Sanskar Said “Mmmm Shreya right !” I turned towards him and said “Yes” Wow what an amazing actor is he.

He said “How are you, how’s work and everything?” and I joined him in acting I replied “Yeah very well” with a little ignorance. And walked towards the changing room.

            I tried both of them I had a green one and another maroon I clicked pictures in both, The Green  Top appeared more decent to me, while the frills on sleeves with maroon one were too frizzy I left the maroon at the basket outside the changing room and got along the green top.

When I came back to my astonishment mom and Sanskar were still chatting like buddies, and I thought I only left you both for like 8 to 10 mins I heard mom saying “Her friend was about to come, she dint tell me who- may be someone new from her office” while Sanskar replied saying “then I must be staying aunty, let’s see how she looks” and they both laughed.

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Oct – 11- 2014

“And, when you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it”

-Paulo Coelho

Well I agree with that when I think of yesterday but today, may be the universe was… but my mom wasn’t ….

I was all dressed up in red Tshirt and black jeans I curled up my hair to look as pretty as I could. When you are in love may be this happens. You tend to love yourself more, you pamper yourself for someone. You take care of all those little things which you never wondered about earlier.

It was10 am- Saturday and I wasn’t lazy at all, I checked dad he wasn’t in his room so I called him and told him that I am going out for lunch with a friend and then I texted Sanskar.

“Good morning, I will be at the Central mall Begumpet by around 11:00 Am . See you there J”

Soon I received a reply “I will reach by 10 :45 J”.

My mom suddenly appeared and asked “where are you planning to go” I answered “I am going for shopping Ma, you want something from the Central Mall?”

She said “Yes I will buy a kurta for you and a Saree for myself wait for 10 mins, I will get ready I am planning to buy either blue or orange saree this time.”

And I had no idea how to control the situation, “Mom why are you getting ready?” I asked as if I dint knew; however I acted very well. Which didn’t work anyway; She was better in acting you see. She said “Beta, Its been long we two went out for shopping. Let’s have some fun; we will also have some snacks. ” My jaw dropped and she was ready in no time. And she said “My treat..”

She walked and I followed her and I said “actually a friend was joining me, so we both thought of going for shopping” She prompted “Who Shivani, ” I said no shaking my head she asked “Sailaja” again I shake my head then she asked a few more name I continued shaking my head till I reached parking. I thought only if Dad was here, I could have asked him to take mom along with him somewhere, can I ask mom to just stay back, naah not a good idea.  Mom Prompted “When did you give your activa for servicing last time?” I took a cloth which I used to keep near a plant in our garden and dusted my scooty, It had been sometime I used my bike.

As I started my bike Mom sat behind and asked “You dint tell me which friend of your is joining us?” I said “You will see ” and I started the bike.

And she said “ I am eager to see..”