Saturday, February 13, 2010

TURMOIL

THIS IS WHAT TAKING ON N OFF THROUGH OUT MY MIND FROM LAST FEW DAYS......


things are becoming so blurred that m unable to reach out to what i wanted ...... what was there last days.. back of my mind ..what was that ,for which i was planning ...

hope its not just me who is facing this

first time in my life i am so confused .. to take up decision is it lack of self confidence or am i becoming weak mentally where is my all strength gone ...

Its tough to take the blow ,which says you just missed the thing which was almost in your hands ...cuz u were a little busy planning for the next movement. i seriously felt sick to my stomach .. m i not worth to b there ... was all the hard stuff i worked on not enough.....

emotions emotions n lot of emotions why they dont understand the logics .........

its not the first time ..... actually

i guess my reflexes are weak i take lot of time to understand n analyze and as i realize what had happened the movement slips off..

say it b the time i could have achieved  a huge reward for my work . or a lil more happiness or pride for my self or a clear understanding to a relationship....

i really don understand when v give so much to some thing how can v miss the fruits of it.... or how r v unable to make ppl understand what v actually meant ....

i was neva so upset with some ones behavior but then  it really hurts when some one, whom u believe so much react in such a way that u neva expected .... that day .. that movement of past was yukk .. too bad that i cudn't understand what was going on ....neva sitting beside someone was so unpleasant ........



 it happened that i shouted on some one for no reason.... it hurts wen u behave rudely to some one who cares u so much even though they understand u, but the guilt huhh no space for it to escape......

i am trying to take a step back but the feel inside gives a complete distressingly discomfort ...







forget forget n jus forget

start up fresh.....

b strong stand up back n work out on your flaws

hope things b fine soon....

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